" A year ago today you were testing my name in your mouth,
using it to wash down cold coffee and cheap pastries.
A year ago today you let me hook my arm in yours because our hands were too cold to hold and you would kiss my cheek every time I pulled away you’d make sure I never pulled away only you could say no. A year ago today things were alright in a twisted way I got 80 minutes with you in the mornings every other day and 25 on the off days.
I never healed, I never healed from those days.
A year from that day,
today, I saw you with her.
Kissing her head when you could and smiling. You hold her hand in public.
You’re still with her.
Today I made a deal I’ll regret just to get some intimacy.
I’ve been searching for your love in the front seat of my car and over phone lines,
you’re never going to make the mistake of kissing me around corners again because I made you realize how much you loved her. "